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Near the end of August last year, I began to bullet journal (bujo) digitally in the Concepts app using my iPad. For me, this has so many benefits and an iPad was definitely a great investment! I'm no longer having to use paper so it creates less waste, I'm able to be creative with it in other ways and can always easily erase when I make mistakes, and an iPad is a lot more compact to carry around. When I started using a digital bujo, I still had some pages left in my old bullet journal. So it was a weird flip between using both of them but I realized I much preferred the digital one. I finally got to switch everything over to electronically at the beginning of this year! And the flip took quite a while. To be exact, here's the instagram post on January 15th for when the move was finally complete! Taking everything from my old bullet journal and moving it to be electronic was quite the task. There were many pages that made much more sense to be Excel Spreadsheets for me to be...

We're already two thirds of the way done with the year. I'll be honest and say that I was expecting much more from 2020. My mindset was so positive at the beginning of the year, but then the pandemic happened, and life happened, and now I just don't know where my mind is at.  It wants to be happy, but I feel like there's something holding it back. I strive for a life of abundance and fulfillment, but I'm still not sure what that means for me. It's almost been 5 years since I've graduated college, and I'm still as lost as ever. I've heard that adulting goes something like this, is that true? Am I just  feeling what most other adults feel? I'm trying to get back to going upward on this rollercoaster, but it feels like as soon as I go a bit up, it just goes a little more down.  I feel like I haven't started living, like I haven't started my life. What am I living for? Who am I living for? What does it even mean to be alive.  These are just s...